Hey

your 100th day with Anita is coming soon.

 

i guess you dont need me to remind you of this. you love her then i guess ur preparing the gifts there.

do you still remember a year ago how did we spend our 100th day?

 

i loved ur dark blue Nike Hoody u knew it and u put it on her shoulder generously.

 

awwww headaches again. someone helps please.

hey

i notice that u havent been using internet for quite a while.

just wondering if you are ok.

i ain't gonna text nor call u coz i need to keep my very last little dignity. i will just write my concern here.

you will never check my live space you will never know im worrying about you. lol it doesnt matter since u never know who i really am.

take care of urself and make new memories of ur own.

there are always ppls who love u around. there are always ppl who never walk away. like ur mum nd papa.

try not to let urself down, dont think too much. things are actually simpler than u think.

hang out with ur friends, do some training (im sure ur enjoying ur time lol) tell ppl whats really going on in ur mind tell them ur thoughts. get some kisses or more from gf.

just hope you are feeling alright there.

xx

时间织成徘徊的网,我以为我可以忘记你,忘记那些微薄的曾经

那些你早已不记得的话

那些散落在风里的应允

那些暧昧的瞬间

那些指间轻触的时空变迁

 

可是我做不到

 

就如我始终做不到改变自己一般

我告诉你things may be different after christmas

我只用了may be,而不是can be, must be or will be

因为我知道自己做不到,我自始自终就是这样一个犹豫不决的人,矛盾里衍生出双倍的苦楚

不够善良又不够心狠手辣,不够天真又不够敏感,有的只是生生被夹在中间的难言

 

是不是有点像你呢?

两面受难,世界那么大却没有你的归属.

你当然知道大家都是真心待你好,只是你自己不知该何去何从.

 

何去何从

你我都面对同样的问题,起因却如此不同.

我是你手心棉线牵引着的风筝,飞得多高多远由你主宰.

或者请你干脆剪断那根线,让我可以带着怀恋远行

 

 

 

中文果然是退步了好多,英文倒不一定进步了多少,郁闷.....

本来就不觉得喜欢一个人是什么正确的事情，可是一旦发生了什么都无法挽回，我知道妈妈听到我这样说又要骂我了，妈妈我很好，我这里什么事情都没有。只不过有点难过，不是因为喜欢什么人，而是因为想你们，我好想回家，当然想回国买东西也是一个主要的原因。

以下的东西妈妈看到了只当我在乱说，我也不会去谈恋爱的。

 

回家的路上你一直在吹口哨，不成调子，两只手插在裤子口袋里，仰头望着快黑下去的天空，因为看得太努力，额头都有了皱纹。吊儿郎当的就和满大街的小青年一模一样，一抓就是一把。

可是我就是被你这样一个普普通通的家伙牵动了心弦，神魂颠倒。你比一般的男孩子高一点，讲话大舌头一点，皮肤黄一点，身体壮实一点，眼角经常带了点点的笑意，或许再敏感一点，点点滴滴就成了你。

 

回忆你都成了一种痛苦,我不想再继续.

You told me you missed me but didn’t know why. You didn’t know why. You said this just for fun. You thought we are friends.

I said I missed you so much. I know why but I won’t tell you, because I care you so much. I wake up with a start by losing you. I smile because you are so close to me.

Everything i do is because of you.